Me, though? Sometimes I turn aside from God because watching Him work is hard. His creation is awesome and beautiful, but the process sometimes terrifies me. That is because I am not yet made perfect in love…because love will cast out all fear. But in the meantime, sometimes when I watch Him working in lives, my heart aches. If I turn from looking at His perfection, I fail to grow stronger; I fail to let others go stronger. In effect, I prop up a life when a foundation needs repair. What a waste of energy, what a travesty of restoration! He alone rescues; He alone gives life.
Today my son is teaching me this lesson. The King is shaping Him; it’s hard to watch. I spoke with him about it and said, ‘God has given you the desire that is beating you up a bit today. It looks like God is using a rubber hammer to shape you. Trust Him.’ (Yes, in telling him, I am reminding me.) His reply? “It feels like a steel hammer.’ Can you imagine what the Father felt as He watched His Son? Accepting the will of the Father is LOVE evidenced in this world. It is not easy in any aspect.
Every part of me wants to rescue my son, to see light shining from his face and joy bubbling in his heart. If I turn to my child to bring that about, I will rob him of heavenly treasures of lasting strength and joy. I must not turn from the One who loves perfectly, who weighs every weight in the bag we each carry. I must not interfere with the work of the Lord…for my sake, for my son’s sake…for my Lord’s sake. The LORD alone knows the sculpting He is doing. I must trust Him and the incredible designs only He can create.